I know it seems odd but it has been bothering me a lot lately. So last summer my (ex)boyfriend and I were hanging out. He had invited me to come over after having a couple drinks- which I didn't know about until afterwards. We were fooling around and he started fingering my ass. I consented to that. But then he just started to have anal sex with me. I didn't know what to do and I didn't say anything. This was the first time I'd had sex at all. He didn't use protection or anything. I never gave verbal consent, but I moaned and everything. It felt good, but it also hurt and I didn't want it to actually happen. I'm not sure if that makes sense, I just want some other opinions without judgement. I don't know if I was being a dumb teenager or if I was a victim of rape...