Thought I was fixed

Simone
I thought it was all past me. The tears, crying, depressed feeling, feeling like I'm worthless was gone. I've been okay for a week. I think of her and smiled. When I woke up this morning, something came over me. I can't stop crying or anything. I just want my baby girl, I was almost complete. I want to have another baby with my boyfriend but it's just so scary !!! I don't think I can go through vaginally giving birth to another stillborn, I would literally lose myself. Simora was going to be my 1st baby:( 
Today just sucks so bad and it's not even 8:10am