Im so close to giving up all hope.

If I'm not pregnant this month I think I'm done trying. I'm so upset about it all. It breaks my heart every month we have been trying for 15 months now. My fiancee had a varicocele repair done hopeing it would solve the problem and we would be able to conceive. Right around that time I had a ovarian cyst rupture or so the dr said even though other people have suggested I may actually have endometriosis since I'm still having pain. I'm just so overwhelmed. Then I have family and friends asking if I'm pregnant yet and it tears me apart. Then anytime I see someone is pregnant or just had a baby it makes me want it even more but also makes me very jealous. Maybe we just not meant to have a baby... :'(