Confused

I'm gonna say it now I really messed up. So I have been dating my BF for 1 month now but we have only texted 3 times since we have been together. The first time was when we got together the second time was on his birthday and the next was when he got out of the Hostpital. I try and text him but he never text me back or even read. When I talk to his cousin she always says she is talking to him or he is at her house WICH is kind of srange because he lives in Mexico. I feel like he doesn't like me anymore. The worst part of all of this is two of my friends ex boyfriend who I have known longer than my BF. I have liked him for the longest . I told him when my friend asked me to break them up and she said I could do what ever I had to. He said he liked me also but he had just got out of a relationship and I was dating someone. Well he said he sees me as a sister and I said I didn't eant to be his dos anymore BC I wanted to be more to him but couldn't be. I feel awful because he has been there for me . But Ik I still have feelings for my BF . WHAT DO I DO PLZ HELP.😱😱😱😫😫😫😖😖😖😭😭😣😣😣😟😟😞😞😔😔☹️☹️🙁🙁