So let's just start at when i was about 13/14, i became depressed. Family was constantly moving around, hated my home life, felt like i shouldn't have been there, physical/mental abuse. Started cutting myself until i was cutting several times a day. Depression got worse. Cutting got worse. Attempted Suicide. At 15 i was raped by my first bf i had ever had. (ages 3 to 8, was sexually abused by family member). Everything was horrible, i felt depressed all the time. Then, i met someone online when i was 15 (he was 20). We fell in love, he made me happy just talking to him, i still was depressed through everything though.

3 years later i moved in with him, got pregnant 2 months later and on July 2, 2015 i had a beutiful little baby boy! But no matter how much i try, im always so depressed, through pregnancy i just wanted to kill myself, after i had my son i still wanted to kill myself and i want to cut myself (havent for a long while and when i do its just a couple little cuts). I am always sad and depressed! I have really bad mood swings!

Has anyone gone through something similar to this? How do i bring it up to my Dr?

Do i go to regular dr or OB/GYN?

We have also been trying for baby #2 since April.. Are you able to get pregnant and take antidepressants or will that effect baby?

Anyone with experience please help!!

Im so nervous and scared about getting help!