Previous chemical and miscarriage

Christina
Hi everyone, I'm writing this feeling a million emotions. We had a silent miscarriage in September I was 9 weeks, and then in February I had a chemical pregnancy. I told myself I would never buy blue dye tests again, and I haven't. And I also said I would never test before my missed period but here I am with this. Not first morning urine, 3 days before I'm supposed to get my period, and this faint line came up right away. I'm so scared that it's going to happen again but I just had a feeling I was pregnant, lots of warm cramps, and have a lot of lotion like discharge. I want to be excited and positive and want to tell someone but I don't want to jump the gun! I don't want to be let down I want to embrace it and be excited.