Grief and loss
Missed miscarriage 10 weeks
Had a very tough pregnacy super nauseous for weeks. Went in for 10 week ultrasound and the first thing I see is a small sack. I said it out of disbelief; omg theres no baby. The whole room went silent and everyone just stared at me, and the tech said lets try transvaginal ultrasound( because im a little heavy) as we continued she didnt excuse anyone i brought with me, or try to spare my feelings she said it bluntly, it has no heartbeat. She measured the fetus and said it was a recent loss by the size and probably within the last 2 weeks. The doctor immediately requested a D&C due to the severity of my symptoms and illness. I have never had so much anxiety in my life. By the time i was at the hospital i had a fever and was dehydrated. The surgery went fine, i had immediate relief of all symptoms. Ive been struggling for days to function. Ive had family take my 2 year old for holiday festivities. But i honestly cant get out of bed. The pain meds make me itchy and my newlywed husband is as emotional or understanding as a rock about this type of situation. And he works nights right now, so im alone what seems like all the time. I had to vent. I have to talk about this. Because it happened, i had a loss of life. But everyone around me doesnt see it that way, ive even been told it was a chemical pregnacy because i wanted a baby to bad. Like WTH does that mean???! I was just married in March, yea a baby would have been perfect addition to our family. But i didnt imagine this. It was real. Or I wouldnt have to have surgery to remove it. How do you cope? My husband plain as day just says at least we can try again. Not until i can heal from this emotionally. :'-(
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