I'm lost in confusion

Alright So me and this guy have been friends for a long time okay? And everyone knows he's had feeling for me forever and I knew it to and I also had feeling for him. He's my best friend first of all but u know we've said we love eachother but idk if it's as friends or meaningful... I've kissed him three times on deals and that stupid game called what are the odds. I'm the kind of girl that always keeps to her word, yeah? So over the school year when I had a boyfriend he would always stick around mostly because he knew my boyfriend was an ass and he is nothing to me now so yeah he turned out to be a pathological liar and basically tryed to tell me his best friend "Kyson whom I've never met was a picture of Colin Ford yeah anyway. So me and my good friends are really close and so we hang out this one time at my house with my other friends there and his friend and you know he was being all cute and putting his arm around me telling me he loved me and all that and everything was okay. Then a few weeks later hence yesterday I start texting him and me and my friends are kind of doing this movie thing yeah yeah it's weird I know but he was supposed to be in it and he started acting really weird and saying he couldn't be in it and he said he needed to find himself in a way before he can commit to a person and I was just concerned and then later I found out it was his friend that had been texting me. But I was talking to the guy that's my friend about this and he seemed like he didn't know and that he was sorry because his friend had said some very crude things to my friend and I was disturbed about that and also that he would allow his friend to text me all those things. He said sorry and I said sorry too and that we needed to talk in the morning because there's obviously problems we need to fix. I however wasn't I don't know how to put this like I just needed to get some things off my chest I sent him this text and it was just like do you not like me anymore like are you Okay like just be up front with me and stop hiding and lying and all this stuff and he never text you back and I just don't know what to do because he's my best friend and I don't want to lose him in on the other hand I kind of want to scream in his face.  please help!!!