Just another rant

I hate myself so much lately.
I'm 23 weeks pregnant and 20 years old.
Just having so much stress on myself I sometimes ask myself "am I even ready for this?" And I hate that I ask myself that. 
Everything just seems to not be going right.
My dad has found out he has cancer.
My partner never seems happy anymore.
My partners family make me extremely stressed.
I don't have a job and have no idea what to do for a job now.
I have so much more stuff to get done for baby.
I'm constantly crying over such little things and it's annoying the crap out of me. And I hate myself for not being as excited as I should be. 
I just want to lay in bed all day but I have been doing nothing so much lately and then I hate myself even more.
I just needed to rant.