So today's the day we go for a detailed scan to see if this baby has the same condition as his or her older sister. Sadly we lost annie at twenty weeks gestation in March, she was so perfect. So small so beautiful, today its a detailed scan with a consultant to check he or she is OK, that they don't have the same condition as our little annie bear. I'm happy I get to see my little pudding again but sad because I'm petrified of what they could tell me and what I would have to go through again as a result. I'm currently nearly 12 weeks from My last af. Dating scan tomorrow then. So hopefully our little rainbow is healthy! So petrified. Send me good vibes and positive thoughts. Hopefully I've got a sticky baby, had spotting all the way through so far, just been told it's normal and there's no cause but it still scares me.

Update: this universe is shit. Sadly our baby's heart stopped beating about a week ago if our dates were right. Going in Friday to give birth again to my angel 😇