I just don't care anymore. I watch everyone around me all starting a family or adding to it and nothing is working for me. My husband and I talked about adoption in the past but last night when I talked to himvagaon he said "I don't want to rush into anything. I dont want to make any rash decisions." so you know what I'm done. If it happens it happens and I highly doubt that adoption is an option now seeing as his attitude has changed and our time for adoption is rapidly going to end due to age requirements where we live.