PPD Support 🌷

I woke up one morning and realized there was a huge chance that I have PPD. My mind was a mile a minute, negative thoughts constantly bombarding my mind, and all the while I have this beautiful baby girl right in front of me. "What's wrong with me?" I thought. This should be one of the happiest times of my life and I'm spending it crying every five seconds drowning myself in paranoia and pure fear. I could hardly control the horrible negative thoughts in my head to the point where I didn't feel in command anymore. My mind began to manifest tiny hallucinations to the point where I thought my house was haunted. Again..paranoia set in. "Someone just please help me." I would mutter to myself. "Can I please have the old me back, please?" I'm a stay at home mom now and it's hard to surround myself with support when  alone all day. Any moms out there with PPD?