Cancer..

Im 15 years old and my boyfriend of 8 months is my longest relationship and he's everything to me... He's my first for everything except hugging and being my first boyfriend. I've never done anything in my past relationships besides hug and kiss on the cheek... (I always thought lips were gross) anyways he has bought me stuffed animals, Starbucks, shirts, he's my first kiss on the lips, my first in sexual activity, went on a date, done drugs, things I've never done before until me and him started to date. He's everything to me.. Well I have liver cancer.. I've had it for a few months now... I got it from all the pills I've been taking... For 4 years I've been taking various kinds of prescribed pills numerous at the same time... And even tried to over dose on unprescribed pills so I can stop taking them... By taking my life... Well a few months ago shortly after they found the tumor caused by my liver cancer I had a radiofrequency (needles that shrink the tumors and basically kills them kinda) well I went in for my daily check up and I've been ignoring my doctors phone calls, emails, and letters... I finally decided to call and see what's the important.. Well it turns out that my cancer has gotten worse (I drink a lot and I feel like drinking a few a week will help..) and well it made everything worse... My doctor said I have 3-7 years to live.. And I recently told my boyfriend (told him 20 mins ago) and he just started to say how much he loved me and he sounded worried.. But he didn't sound worried when I went to get my procedure done.. I love him so much and I don't want to leave this world I don't want to leave him behind... I love him so much...