Rant !

I haven't got my period and I was due the 20th of November I really hope I don't get it. I'm really just hoping this is finally a pregnancy. I just want a baby. Took a test last week and it came with a thin blue line halfway through the test so I'm assuming it was an error test and wasnt a real positive. But now I don't want to take a test again because if it comes out negative I think I might just freak out. But this time it feels different I feel like this just might be it and if it isn't I feel like that's whats really hard for me.