thankful .

I often catch myself dwelling on the negative aspects of my life since we started this journey ..normally I'm pretty optimistic , open minded , and try an make the best out of any givin situation . Lately though all I can see is the negative . TTC can be so discouraging, we want so badly to see those two pink lines , anything to make us hopeful but nothing , "another 15 dollars flushed down the drain " not to mention the cost of the opks .. Then the dreaded , but awaited AF comes and we complain about her , nothing ever seems fair . We see and hear about people having unplanned pregnancies, abortions , we even see on the news " baby found in a plastic bag in the dumpster ALIVE " we can't help but think why do people who don't even want a child become pregnant so easily .. They'd do by thing to get rid of it go to every possible extreme and here we are with loving warm arms wanting more then anything to hold our perfect swaddled baby close to us !! It doesn't seem fair , but through the craziness we hear stay positive , don't think about it and it will happen at the right time ..(mostly from the people who scored the winning goal at the first game ALL 4 times) TTC is difficult , it's not easy but it's going to make that bfp so much more worth it . I'm so thankful for my family , and friends here on glow that know the hardships of the journey , that are here supporting me every step if the way .