My fiance and I are fighting so much now. I don't know what to do. We use to be so beautiful. Happy. Things started to go down hill when he decided to go to the army in 2012. Yes that far back... He didn't trust me so I broke up with him. I know, not the best thing to do. After that we took a 9 month break. And got back together. And let me tell you, That wasn't pretty. See back then I was willing to fight. He would make me feel bad about the choices I've made during that time (i never had sex with anyone but him just so we are clear) and the things I've done weren't as bad as his but I never tried to make him feel bad for it. We were young then but we moved passed it but more problems unfolded. And the more problems the less energy I had to fight for him you know? It started to get worse in 2014 when we got pregnant and I miscarried. He was so upset that he kind of shut me out and I needed him then.... So in 2015 we got pregnant again. We were happy but my mood swings were to much for him and he got mean again. We faught almost every day. It was so bad I fell into a depression and I had to break up with him again. But once she came we were better. But after 3 months of her being here, he got mad again because I wasn't what he wanted me to be. He wanted me to still satisfy him even thought I had postpartum depression and there was a chance I may never enjoy sex again and he said I wasn't there for him and I don't listen to him anymore so he went to another woman to "vent" he called it. I found out and we broke up for 2 months. I forgave him for it but I cannot forget and we fight mostly because he wants my time and attention and my submission and to act like a wife. But we aren't married yet and his argument on that is that we are in practice for the real thing and right now I'm being a shitty wife. But I don't feel I should be a wife to him if I'm not married to him and that he has no place to demand such from me. But I know I'm not good. And I know I'm not doing what I should for him but it's hard to do it because of all the fighting and all the anger and hurt I have towards him.... He's impossible to talk to I've tried countless ammount of times.... He's one of those people that if you tell him about your problems, he needs to tell his. So I'm at a point where I'm just too tired to express how I feel to him.... I don't want to and I just want to be alone. But every time I see him I still get butterflies and I can't help but smile and I feel like I need him. I know I'm still in love with him but because of how I'm feeling I hold off on marrying him because I just don't know if I should. And I'm also thinking about our 6 month old daughter and what is best for her.... I want to make the right decision. Someone if you have any advice at all and actually ready this long thing, please give it to me because I really need it.