Now my feelings are all mixed

We broke up 2 weeks ago. I'm 11 weeks pregnant and we are on good terms. We've been up and down for 2 years..I'm not hysterical...yes, I'm heart broken but it is what it is. We still talk everyday and he tells me he loves me every night. I kind of started to get over the fact that we split...again. Then I graduated tonight...and was over the moon happy! I hadn't  told my parents how things were going between us...mainly because I'm 25 and my parents are ultra conservative Catholics and I mostly don't feel much of anything and prefer to keep silent and deal with things on my own.
Well, good ole dad asks him if he is committed to me and blah blah. Things were fine...but I know the shit storm coming my way and for the first time in a long time, I'm laying here on my bed...feeling like crying because I realize that I really may have lost the only man I've ever REALLY loved..and I mean in the romantic sense. He just might go and fall in love with someone who isn't me...and I have zero interest in dating honestly...I just have these mixed feelings and I wish I was out celebrating my graduation instead of hiding from the world because I just have no desire to be around anyone.