Im not sure where to go from here. Im married, very happily I may add. But something in my life has never felt complete. I have searched for 10 years or longer to find out what it is. I think I found it. Im not meant to be married or with one person. I need to much and have to much love to give for one person. Im on my second marriage at 26. I have two kids from first marriage. And trying for almost 2 years for number 3. Nothing I do makes my pain go away from my traumatic past. Until now. I have my husband and kinda boyfriend on the side. They both know about each other. They are best friends. I couldn't be happier. But my husband is all of a sudden having a problem with all of it. Do I follow what makes me happy or give up finally feeling complete and full of happiness to make him happy??