AF is due Wednesday. And I just finished my medication. I have a bad infection. I'm currently in the mood to drink; can't because I have to wait three days after my medicine cycle ends. Or risk serious side effects. :/ I'm quite down, after talking about all the trouble me and my so have been having lately and he finally admitted that he is not sure if he wants kids. He kinda only wants them coz I do. /: He could take it or leave it. 😞 that has only made things stressed between us. I feel like I'm forcing him into a pregnancy (when and if it happens) he apparently has no interest in. 😞 He already has a child with another woman. I feel like that is all he wants. And of late he has been so bitchy and mean. I'm at the point of idk where this is going. He has aspergers and bipolar. I knew that before we got married, I work with him. We get thur it; he is on meds to help. However it's like we are hot or cold lately. I know every couple have their issues. After all this that's bult up, I'm depressed and not sure how or even if I want to continue. It's like we're not on the same page anymore. Not even the same book. 😞 I needed to tell someone. I'm not looking for negativity. Idk what I'm looking for. Idk. The odds of us being pregnant is low. Not getting my hopes up. However, idk what to do about anything. I just wanna sleep and eat chocolate. Or GummyBears, GummyBears are good.