*Update* Feeling lost and hopeless

Natale • NM🌸
Went for ultrasound Monday, 7 weeks and they couldn't see the baby, only gestational sac.  I had bloodwork done yesterday and hcg is 17,728, it was 3,895 twelve days earlier.  I go back for an ultrasound on Monday but I don't know how I'm going to make it until then!!  I have been crying nonstop and I don't know what to do besides pray.  
7/18/16- not sure what to think....now they see a yolk sac but the gestational sac hasn't grown any. More waiting...I can't wait for good news, let alone bad news!!  I just want to curl up and cry....
7/21/16- I found out I was pregnant exactly one month ago today.  After today, I will no longer be pregnant...I feel like a failure as a woman, I have let my fiancé down as well as his mom.  I just want to keep apologizing to them.  I have prayed, I have cried, I have mourned.  But I will make it through this somehow...