Me an the hubby had been trying near 2 year for our daughter so was over the moon when we got pregnant it was a difficult pregnancy I threw up day an night from week 6 still we had it all planned he'd cut the cord I'd hold her pass her to him then breast feed but things din go that way after a scan I was told I had to stay as she was measuring small I was told I was having a c section Friday but went into labour Thursday early hours my hubby made it an the labour was easy went well but after she came out my hubby cut her cord as planned they gave me her but then she was gone straight to scbu the next time I saw her she was wired up in a fish tank I din make enuff milk so wen I did get to try nurse her I had nothing they did everything for her there were times wrote down family cares where me an the hubby could change bath her but a lot of the times it was already dun. She's 33 weeks now an doing fab but I feel so down about it it's breaking my heart am I selfish for this as I have A healthy baby an a lot of the other baby's on the scbu wernt