I come home 9 hours after birth and was hit hard with struggles of breastfeeding. Which I became defeated and gave up for keep my mental state sane. My anxiety was horrible, I couldn't eat and baby wanted to feed constantly so I hadn't slept in 4 days. 

My anxiety has got better and my husband helped me through all of it. Yet for some reason I am so angry at him. I gave birth and have had horrible anxiety and he still got me nothing for doing all of it. I hinted on some flowers even just £3 worth. I got nothing still. It truly upsets me how I've gone through so much in two weeks. Anxiety, infection in womb that I'm being treated for and still hurts, my grandad passed away last weekend too and today I feel so angry and frustrated. 

I think the flower situation upsets me so much because when I had my two boys 6 & 8 years ago with my ex all the other mums got gifts off there partners or husbands and o received nothing, they where special care babies and he told me I failed as a mother. 

I expected some flowers off my husband. Everyone has lavished my baby girl and spoilt her rotten and all I wanted was some flowers from a supermarket!!!!