Back to me!

I haven't felt myself in the last 4 years! I've just been depressed! Sometimes I feel like I'm going to go crazy and lose my mind! I'm just overwhelmed with life! I want the old me back! I don't want to be depressed around my baby because he makes me so happy but it's like a feeling I can't shake. I'm only 21 and I shouldn't feel like this. It's ruining me and my relationship. Depression is real....it does hurt and I feel like I can't escape it. No matter what I do. I don't know where this came from....but I want me back 😢