Trying to stay happy

I'm 41+1 and trying to stay happy. Took my boys to Chuck e cheese. If chasing a 2 year old around that horrible place didn't make me go in labor I give up !!!!! I was having lots of bloody show for 3 days and it has stopped. Contractions still intermittent. Had an anxiety attack... That was fun. I don't know what else to do. I think I'm just going to go to a restaurant tonight and stuff my face😂.
Induced on Wednesday if he doesn't come. I am trying to keep my mind off of this but my butt hole is literally INSIDE OUT at this point from the pressure, this happened about 2 days ago. I can't even sit down. I'm pouring witch hazel and prep h on my butt, sitting on my boppy pillow and dreading bowel movements. If I have to wait until Wednesday and this gets worse I don't know what I will do.