Can you eat meat and love animals?

Okay so I'm a HUGE animal lover. When I say huge I mean huge. I have 5 dogs and 3 cats, only because they were strays. I didn't have the heart to give them away to the shelter or pound. I cried at the thought of leaving them.  And insects too! I can't kill bugs not even flies. There's spiders in my extra bathtub... Breeding. I don't have the heart to hurt their growing family 😭 no matter how freaked out by them I am. 
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But I eat meat. I've tried to be a vegetarian/vegan. It lasted a day. I couldn't last because my mom made some bomb ass tacos and I couldn't resist. I crave meat, all of it. But let's say I'm driving and see a truck stocked up with cows. I'm sad, I feel like crying. I've watched the videos of what the animals go through and they scarred me. I can't watch them. But I'm still able to eat meat?  Anyone else like this? Is it that I don't see these animals suffering perosnally? I don't want to contribute to animals suffering, but I don't seem affected by it when I eat meat. What do I do? Visit a meat factory? Can you be a animal lover and eat meat? 
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 cara there's like 6 of them, and they are daddy long legs. And in my bathtub... Not infesting my house. Thanks for the input though