I need some help... anyone..?

So..! Does anyone else feel like I do..?

I lost my virginity to my ex-boyfriend. I was well into 18, edging closer to 19, and I had absolutely no regrets. We were really in love. And we were together almost 2 years - broke up once, got back together, stayed together another 6 months, and broke up again - and now I'm so confused! I moved over an hour away to try to get away from him, since we almost always end up back into each other's arms, and I met someone else and we started dating. We've been together like a month now and he's absolutely incredible, but when I came back into town last weekend to give him money for our phone bill, it was the first time I had spoken to him at all - let alone seen him- in 2 months, (the longest we've ever gone not talking to or seeing each other,) and he teared up and wouldn't let me go and told me how much he loved me. Even told me to tell my new boyfriend to love me like he did.

Now, somehow he talked me into sleeping with him. I don't know how this haopened, but it was beautiful and wonderful and passionate and he told me he loved me but he didn't want to hurt me because he knows he can't give me what I deserve.

But as of this weekend he's being distant and impossible and I don't know what to do. I told my current boyfriend I needed a break to figure everything out and he's being really cool about everything but I'm just so confused! We keep ending back up together, always, but eventually he says some bullshit about kinda missing his ex and how he feels happy around her but she only wants to be friends with him and yet says he loves me and actually feels real emotions with me, but can't bring himself to be with me again...

Please, someone, for the love of God help me. I don't know what to do anymore. I need help. I literally can't stop thinking about him and I don't know what to do... Anyone..?