Guilt!
I delivered on Wednesday July 13th via csection due to preeclampsia and HELLP syndrome. I was only 25 weeks 4 days. I know there's nothing I could do about it but I can't help but feel guilty cause I couldn't carry her longer and give her a better chance. I was a surrogate for an amazing couple and they have been nothing but great trying to reassure me that it wasn't my fault. They tell me not to feel guilty and that Emma loves me. I just wish this was all different.
To make matters worse, she was just transported to another nicu due to having a perforated bowel and needs surgery asap cause it's very serious for a baby as small and young as she is.
It's just so hard to think anything right now except guilt because I want the best for baby Emma.
The picture was from today when she finally opened both eyes. Pleeeease keep baby Emma-Joy in your thoughts. 
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