A little long but it would be helpful if someone just gave me advice no need to be rude please. We've been friends since second grade we haven't seen each other since we were little we live in different states though. I stay in California and she stays in Las Vegas. Before she got pregnant we had a tight bond we were really close. Her pregnancy wasn't planned at all and when she found out and was scared as hell I was there for her. I'm not a selfish person and I wasn't angry at her but when she started getting happier as she showed me her belly progressing, ultrasounds, finding out the gender, etc we became distant and I was getting depressed and a little jealous but like I said I'm not a selfish person it was just hard. Around June I had a chemical pregnancy and I was devastated and here I am still trying. It was hard for me too see her happy pregnant when I wanted my baby so bad. She probably thinks I'm just a horrible friend, that I'm fake, and probably all this other shit because I know she was always there for me and to be honest yes I do feel bad but it's hard when you want something so bad but you can't get it. She stopped calling me and texting me around the end of May and it was just so hard for me to tell her how I felt because of our age (we're both 20) she felt like I was too young to have a baby when I'm stable, my boyfriend and I live together, we both have jobs with a steady income, we both drive and I just didn't want her to judge me so I just kept it to myself. She just had the baby yesterday I messaged her on Facebook and I said congrats on your baby girl she's so beautiful and she never replied. Should I tell her how I felt or just forget about it and move on? That was my only best friend besides my boyfriend but I know my life doesn't revolve around her and she can just focus on her baby I know it's a life changing experience