I don't know how to deal

I don't know how to deal.... I don't know how to deal with my panic/attacks. I never used to have them. Started getting them at the end of 2014😒. I graduated college May 2014 and a few months after, with stressing over getting a job I guess is what triggered them! I haven't had a good sleep since beginning of 2014. I'm constantly worrying that something is gonna happen to me. I'm scared! 2 years later and I'm still searching for employment and it seems my attacks are getting worse and I'm just depressed! I don't know how to deal with it, any of it! I was told to be patient! That I'm on God's timing and I may not be where I want to be but I'm where he wants me to be! I worry about my health all the time and that causes me to panic even more bc no job= no healthcare! Ever felt like a failure? I do! Like I wasted time in college because nothing is going right for me! Then I remember what comes easy won't last and what lasts won't come easy! I just had an anxiety attack about 20 minutes ago... So I figured I'd write and try to calm myself! Even if no advice, thank you for listening! 😔