😠 Venting

Aria
Need to vent for a second... I just gave birth to the twins three days ago they're in the Nicu and will be for a while.. And really my only job to help them is to pump for breast milk and it's killing me that it's not working! I've been trying for three days and still not even a couple drops ! I'm sooooo frustrated that the only thing I can do is that and I can't even do it! ... My husband says I give up to fast but I will be on the pump for at least an hour and nothing will come and then I get upset and want to punch a hole in the wall or cry... Is it really this hard to pump milk?? I have three older kids but I've never breast fed or used the pump before buying so upset with myself.. I feel like I'm always getting the short end of the stick, I can nvr get things quite right..ok venting over.