For the past few weeks I have been easily ticked off. I came home from a few hours of work yesterday (after having a LONG talk about him helping me around the house bc we BOTH WORK and he needs to do his 50%) and was pissed bc the house was exactly how I left it (semi messy) wouldn't have took long to clean it but my SO must have slept or something all day. Well I walk in and I notice the mess and he is frantically taking out the garbage (he clearly was trying to clean everything while I was pulling in the driveway bc he did nothin all day) obviously this pissed me off to no end. My feet were KILLING ME. I immediately sigh and start washing dishes without greeting him or even sitting down for a minute. Each dish I wash I'm more and more pissed. Finally I'm done. He is still "cleaning" really he sucks at cleaning he uses a dry rag to wipe off crumbs on the counters. 😒 when I noticed the bed not made that did it for me. I turned around and walked out the door and walked to my grandfathers grave at the church down the road. (I had a car but I needed this walk) I didn't want to scream at him so I just went. I could see from the corner of my eye he was watching me from the window. I get to grandpas grave and I sit on the bench there at his headstone. I break down. I talked and talked to my grandpa. I picked him some flowers I found and put them in the mason jar sitting on his headstone. I sat back down on the dirt this time and got on my knees and I prayed vigorously. Weeping so heavily. I was begging for guidance and a sign things would be okay. It is above 95 degrees Fahrenheit where I live every day during these months. I felt a cool breeze and a few seconds later a hand on my back. I sat up and there stands my SO. He kneeled with me and held my hand (I'm still upset with him) his words shocked me and I'll never forget this moment. He says "Ashley, nothing bad is ever gonna happen to you, I'm always gonna take care of you" I've never had any real family to bring around my SO (drug addict parents don't know where they are) and the rest of my family has passed away mostly. He couldn't have possibly known my grandpa said that to me every time I got a scrape and cried. Every time I got upset about anything he would hug me. And tell me those exact words. Maybe a coincident. But it made me speechless. I know this is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life no matter how dirty my house is. Or how hormonal my pregnancy is. Our life together is wonderful.