Tired of Waiting - Cycle Day 82. 😞

Jaime • B/G Twins due July 2018! ⚾️🎀
Currently on cycle day 82 and have had probably about 30 BFNs.  Each day I wake up thinking "well, hopefully today's the day I will either get my BFP or AF" and each day I'm let down.  I haven't even had the tiniest bit of spotting to suggest AF is on her way.  My OBGYN appointment is still 5 weeks away.  
Please tell me I'm not the only one in this boat.  It's really hard not to get frustrated. I never imagined it would be this hard.