So scared to lose again

Nicola

So im twelve weeks and after two miscarriages i am absolutely petrified its going to happen again.

I couldn't figure out why i keep laughing it off when friends etc are sayin i am getting a bump.then i realised tonight its coz ive never got to the bump stage before and it means physically seeing and feeling something i could lose

I dunno i just feel sad when i should be on top of the world :(