The first day I cried

Today is the first day I cried, sobbed actually that our family hasn't begun. I know it's only been 8 months of trying. And that's not a lot of time. I was reading a beautiful letter a friend of mine wrote to her foster child. And I wept. She's such a beautiful and amazing person and I credit her for being able to foster a child and love him as her own. And it made me incredibly sad that I didn't have my own child to love and care for. I know that I have time and I'm young but I don't want to wait. I've always wanted to be a mom more than anything else. I've always wanted to care for my own children. And my husband and I can't afford to adopt or invitro though I would love to adopt siblings and give them a loving home to feel safe and comfortable and together. I just suddenly felt overwhelmed with emotion tonight. Thank you for reading, please don't judge. I just had to get my feelings out. Thanks again.