My depression is effecting my work. It's affecting everything around me I am having the hardest time being happy or even acting happy I don't love the things I used to love and I do not want to do anything anymore. I know my boss wants to fire me, he is dissapointed in the way I work but i try, i try so hard to find motivation but all I feel is fatigue and foggy and overall sadness. but I am against taking antidepressants I feel that they are a bandaid for your sadness. I want to find real happiness. My feelings are so hurt I don't feel like my boss (a veterinarian) is being understanding he is treating me badly even when I feel like I'm trying to work hard and he is gossiping about me to my employees.