I was recently pregnant not so long ago w/ my first baby girl Davina Yaya Mendez 👑  whom was a still born baby , I gave birth to her at 16 weeks , one of the saddest days of my life . I had just heard her heart beat that morning .. As time went by I was rushed into the E.R. With excruciating pain , my daughter didn't have a heart beat that night , I was so indenial I made them do two sonograms after they broke the news to me . I didn't want to believe it , my mind was there but it was like my heart left with my Baby Davina , 🎀 when I was pregnant w/ my daughter it was suppose to be a surprise to our family's , we didn't or ever mention it , except for immediate family . Iam now pregnant with my second child 👶🏽🌸 I do not know the gender yet but soon to find out . This month my baby Davina was suppose to be born , but I guess my girl was to precious for the world 💚 I am now 18 weeks and I find my self not feeling so connected w/my belly nor feel like I'm happy sometimes .. Don't get me wrong I love my child that im carring at the moment but is it normal to feel this way ? I worrie every day w/ my baby , is his or her heart going to give out ? Is baby okay ?  I feel guilty cause even when I was pregnant the 1st time I never posted anything about her , and I feel awful , like its a MUST NOW to do so w/ my baby now .. Maybe a bit of adivd would help .