Disappointment

You ever wanted something so bad but just felt completely useless. I want the one thing that I have no control over. I feel as though I would be a great mother but will more than likely never have that chance. I constantly ask myself what have I done that was so wrong to have such a terrible punishment, there are plenty of people who have abortions and mistreat children but for some reason they were blessed with a gift that they didn't want. What makes them so much better than me, why were they choose and not me??? Just want to rant.