Miscarried today... Sad day.

I started bleeding last Thursday and it was light not too much... I knew I was going to miscarry as 3 ultrasounds including ER revealed no baby. I should have been about 10 weeks today, I kept everything that came out as I dug it out the toilet, I'm hesitant to search for my baby in there , but I want to see him/her for full closure. Has anyone had an experience like this and did you dig your baby out? Just heart broken and devistated at the moment.