It sucks being married to a man that doesn't care about your emotional/sexual needs. Who doesn't even know how you like sex because you can never ever talk about it. It just happens when he wants it to. Whom you can try to initiate after being gone for weeks away from him and he asks you to get off and starts snoring. Or you can try to initiate any time at all and be told no. I've always been a super physical/sexual person. We were super sexual before we got married, why did it change completely after we made it official? I don't understand why I deserve to be so sexual unsatisfied and frustrated all the time. I don't understand why I'm cursed to have to fantasize about how things use to be instead of being able to just openly be sexual towards him. I don't understand why I'm forced to go weeks being horny and denied and he doesn't care. This can't be what God had planned for me for the rest of my life. I'm running out of tears. I'm tired of loosing sleep. I'm tired of my daughter being able to pick up on the fact that I'm just not happy most of the time. I'm tired of pretending for the sake of peace.