Honestly having a hard time.

Ttc for 6 months. I'm extremely depressed. Everyone seems to get pregnant easily even people who didn't want to get pregnant. I have 3 beautiful step kids. But at the end of the day I'm not Mom. My husband doesn't understand he is a father. I have no one to talk to about this that they understand. There's nothing more in the world I want then being a Mom. I'm heart broken every month and I feel like I have to force myself to have sex to try and get pregnant. All o this is exhausting.