So Stressed ‼️

I'm only 16 & thought I couldn't get pregnant because "God knew I wasn't worthy of reproducing" ... unfortunately , after many sexual encounters with no pregnancy , I finally met a guy & fell in love with him , ending up now 29 weeks pregnant with a daughter ... this is the most depressing thing I have ever been thru in my entire life - even more than my sexual assault & experience of cyber/school bullying which caused my PTSD & anxiety . i hate talking to my mom about my risen depression because I feel like I annoy people period with my emotions .. I want to do adoption but the thought of giving my daughter to someone else makes me cry even harder ... I don't even have constant contact with the guy I'm pregnant by because he's a lot older than me & his family doesn't like my age or me period on top of him always putting his friends before me . so I gave up on him & I have decided that I just won't speak to him anymore & whatever I decide to do , he will just b lost 💯 I have strong urges to cut & I have thoughts to commit suicide once she's born majority of the time . I'm so afraid that I will do something to hurt myself which will hurt her but I'm very strained out about stressing my mom out about taking me to get help . can someone please give me advice ? I know there's gonna b at least one negative comment but hey , I heard worse about myself ... please help someone ....