❤️ Another man EDIT

Ok so 3 years ago there was a man. He and I met online, talked for a while and met up for a date. The date sucked because I was immature at the time and completely insecure. I basically ruined the night. About 6 months later I met the man I have been with for just over 2 years now. While with my current boyfriend I have lost everything and even moved out of the country to be with him and his child. Things have not been good between us. I have fallen in love with his child and has been named step-mommy. Problem is I want out. I do but I don't. NOW, I have reconnected with the first ma from 3 years ago via social media and Whatsapp. He is so drop-dead gorgeous, my dream man and everything I ever wanted. This only makes the desire to leave even moreso. Sadly I do not think this man actually wants me to be anything more than a friend. I dare not ask his intentions so soon.. I don't know what to do. 
***********************EDIT: Thanks for calling me shallow and thanks for saying I'm uncommitted. I guess I failed to mention the reason why we are not doing well. I should clarify that this man keeps me locked at home, keeps me from going out, mocks the fact that I have no friends anymore, he has hit me, he pulls my hair, leaves me at home wth his child while he goes out and parties until 3, 4, 5 and even 6 am.. Call me shallow. Sure. Tell me that I'm not sticking it out. Sure. But listen to me now. And THEN make your judgement. I am NOT married to this man. I am not even engaged to this man. I owe him nothing.