I just want a break

17 weeks pregnant and just wanting to be on a beach, by MYSELF. Getting up at the break of dawn to care for my 3 year old while my now unemployed husband sleeps in till noon, and lazes around when he wakes up, on his phone, scrolling through Facebook for 2 hours before he gets up on his feet. Not spending this precious time to look for a job while I'm freaking out, trying to pick up extra serving shifts to somehow make rent next month.

I'm the only one cleaning. Constantly. Can't remember the last time he did the laundry or dishes. I'm the one that gets up when our three year old needs something. By the end of the night, my feet are swollen and my hips hurt. I try to please him and a lot of days are really great and he is so so sweet. I don't think he is doing it to be mean at all. I just think he is still 15 in the brain.

I'm just so exhausted...