So discouraged

Alexus • After 7 miscarriages & slightly complicated pregnancy my first baby has made it to the world born April 3,2017 6lbs 4oz. Ayden Joshua 💛 & Ashton Franklin 11/11/18 💚
I'm sad. I'm 8dpo getting BFNS I really thought this was my month! I'm so ready to be a mommie. I'm loosing hope. I have a beta draw today. Not looking forward to it. I'm afraid of hearing them say its negative. I'm so down I could cry.