Mixed feelings

Well I broke down and tested tonight (AF due in the next few days). It was a BFN which I kind of expected bc it's my first month off BC and I never got a positive opk. There was still a tiny piece of me that was hopeful for a BFP. Not seeing that second line show up was a bit of a let down. Now I just want AF to show-up so I can get started on next month. Sigh....fingers crossed for next month! Wishing all you ladies lots of luck this week. Can't wait to see some BFP posts! ??