Ready to give up..

After 2 test with faint positives and 2 negative digitalis and a all day trip to the health department I have let myself down.. So many gave me happy thoughts last night as I posted 1 of 4 test to see if it was just me or was it really there but now my world has came to stop as I wonder why?? Why me? Why won't it just happen? Why haven't I got pregnant yet? I've done all the right things.. And yet noting but heartache and disappointment.