Was your first blowjob awkward? I've never giving one but I would like some input 😅

Tiarrah
So my boyfriend and I always talk about "pleasing" each other before sex but I am always so awkward about it when the time comes. We always end up just doing it right away without any foreplay .. I would love to try stuff out but I don't understand why I am so awkward about it.. The only thing we really do for "foreplay" is touch each other.. Help!!!!