Guilty

Okay so my husband and u have a very close, honest and loving relationship. But he is in the navy and is gone a lot. Currently he's been gone for a month, and I spend most of my time alone by myself. But recently I started making new friends. And here's my dilemma. I have been so coupes up in the house with no one to talk to, that when I do go out with people, I say things I normally wouldn't say. Like I have no filter. I talk about porn I tlak about this and that. And I feel fine in the moment talking about that, but then later on I feel super guilty that I talked about things I could never tell my husband to people I barely know. We are Christians and I try so hard to be open and honest and this is the first time in our marriage where I feel like I'm being dishonest. But I just want him to come home and I want to be with him and I feel like it will all be better. Should I feel this way? What are your thoughts? I just really need a friend right now