So annoyed!

Please don't judge me on this but I hate my mother. When we fight or whatever the first thing she does is send my baby to die. She has 5 kids and each one of us truly dislike her. My dad left her so did my step father she's a fucking miserable lonely bitch. No body wants her because of her and her actions. She such an evil soul. I'm a mother my self and I will never do or say the things she does. God forgive me for having these feeling of her. Even when I was younger she always used to tell me she wished he aborted me. I mean what kind of mother is that!!! Ugghh I'm disgusted in her. She thinks someone owes her something. She supposed to cook for my shower next week I'm about to tell her to go fuck her self and have it catered I will pay extra instead of having her at my shower knowing I don't like that lady or anything about her. Ugghh I'm so annoyed by her. Even when she talks my skin crawls. Yuckk..