Did you wait until marriage to have sex even if you weren't a virgin?

So, I just want to get everything out of me and I know this is a nice community about sex and understands religion; I feel confident and comfortable because it's mostly women. Anyways... I'm 16. Lost my virginity at 14 with a guy I loved so much and I was very happy. I am Catholic and my family (mostly my dad) are very religious as well. At first, I didn't want to have sex because, yes!, I was very young. But I've always heard that I'm mature and I have a different mind than other people. I used to tell my then boyfriend that I wanted to wait until marriage even if it was too far from now. But one day we just did it. And then we kept doing it again. Once I was even terrified because we didn't use protection (but he pulled out anyways) but I always felt safe because he could offer me a future. I broke up with him because he was into drugs and he started lying to me. Even after 2 years he still looks for me but I don't want to ever get back with him, because it makes me sad that I don't have feelings for him even though we went to something special. Anyways, even if I was having sex, I was always praying, reading the bible, super happy always and grateful... Like, REALLY happy with God. I even asked him that if we broke up to not let me be broken hearted and I didn't suffer a lot. But after him I did, never had sex with the next guy though, my next "boyfriend" wanted to have sex and I when I said no he left me. All that was in Mexico. One year after I was now living in California. I was surprised of how sexual teens were so I started to share how I wasn't a virgin and stuff. One day, I met a guy and well, it was at his house. I slept over. OBVIOUSLY I was going to have sex. He didn't have condoms so we did it for like 1 min. He pulled out. I bought plan B. My first plan B even if I didn't need it. I was SUPER terrified. He was too; he even apologized to me lots of times. I couldn't sleep, I was crying and praying super hard to not be prego and then I bought a hpt. I though: "am I really doing all this stuff righth now? Like, I'm 16"... I asked God for forgiveness and even said I'm not going to do it in a while. I was still scared I could be pregnant even though I got 2 BFN and my period. One day, I discovered masturbation. At first it was like super good, then I started to feel very guilty. I looked up if it was a sin and lots of people said "no", while others said it was a mortal sin. If I masturbated, I would fast and pray a rosary... I always felt sad and down. Then I stopped but I went back again. If I do it it doesn't release my stress, it makes me stress more! It makes me feel bad and sad all the time. So, before coming for vacation to Mexico this summer, I met an Asian guy (and I'm obsessed with them) that lives close to me. We met and we said only to watch a movie. I went out and bought some condoms because I knew myself. So, we did have sex. At the end I checked the condoms and they weren't broke. After that I was like: nope, I'm not pregnant, I'm also almost on my period. Got my period. Once I saw an article saying that birth control is a no-no for Catholics. I was terrified because I've used condoms, spermicide folds (bought, but didn't use) and plan B... Next month I was scared because maybe I was pregnant. My period was late but still got it. I kept masturbating and feeling bad with myself, stressed because MAYBE I was pregnant... I went to confession again but still felt very bad. I'm always trying to be happy so one day, here in Mexico I told God: I won't have sex because it makes me depressed. I only will with a man who offers me a future if something happens. Haven't had sex since the last guy. I feel bad because the last two guys were not even my boyfriends, they were first dates. So I keep masturbating and still feel bad but I said once to God: "I need to feel happy. Rather do this than have sex and put myself at risk". But still, feel guilty and trying not to do it. It was going well until I was about to get my period and STILL thinking that I'm pregnant I masturbated to see if it comes faster. Nothing. I'm one day late but super worried even if I got a negative hpt and all my past periods. Now comes my controversy: a few days ago my dad talked to me and my sister about sex and relationships, he said: "virginity is the most important, if you lose it, the guy might be telling you or threaten you because you're not a virgin any more. So, it'll be hard, you'll have to find someone that isn't virgin or that accepts you for how you're. And try to always be nice and keep it good with that". He asked for a lot to us, he wants someone that is Catholic, not on drugs or any vice, virgin, that isn't crazy, that wasn't married... He wants us to marry at church before having children. He said: "me and your mom did things wrong. We were in an open relationship and had you guys. I was not a virgin. And look, you guys suffer a lot because that's what happens to open relationship babies" my parents have been married for 18 years. He said law doesn't matter but church. And I understand and agree. He just made me feel very bad because he said people that have premarital sex will condemn their families and themselves. He even apologized to us. I went to bed super scared, asking God for forgiveness and yes! I will try to have sex only until I get married because my beliefs are strong and also I will stop masturbating. It's all a process. But I think is super hard to get a guy that will respect me because I'm not a virgin... More if it's not religious. I know we all have errors, but I do not want to disappoint God, myself, or my parents because I've failed God lots of times and didn't even complete my promises. I want to leave the bad aside and be happy again but I just think ill be hard for me to find someone that accepts me because it was 3 times... Not even one. And I know I have lots of work to do with myself and my religion. Because it'll be ironic if I tell a guy: I'm not a virgin but still want to wait until we get married to have sex. Then might think: it wasn't even once that you had sex... So maybe lie? But that'll hurt me or/and them. I don't know what to think or do. Only time and God can decide. But, did you wait until marriage to have sex even if you weren't a virgin? How did your parter take it?

Thanks girls for helping me and making it trough the end. God bless you and pray for me please.